„FORGIVE THE CNTS/ schlechter Mensch“

by Hannah Holthaus

“Can you say about yourself that you’re a good person? I always wanted to be a bad person. I wanted pity, too. Well. That’s what you get for being honest. I want pity, but I get most of it from myself.

(…)

Start over. But this time, really without thinking. This time, just harder and more honestly. Without so-called art that isn’t really art.”

An “I” on stage, trying to express myself as truthfully as possible, simply doing nothing for once, and—tormented by the question of whether I’m a bad or good person—still ending up in staged performances time and again.

“Something about myself. It’s so beautiful that it makes me sad—I laugh with my friends and pretend I don’t mean it seriously.”